wrote today 05-09-08
Facts:
My world - My own
My bubble – My home
My life – My sight
My heart – My right
The time – The day
The choice – The way
I smile – I laugh
I breathe – I dance
She’ll still love – She’ll still share
She’ll still achieve – She’ll even dare
They are – Mine
It is – now
I do – in life
I will – still
Wrote this today: 05-09-08
All is done in the end
I’ve learned
I’ve lived
I’ve laughed
I’ve cried
I’ve smiled
In this life
I do -
What else is there?
I’ve met you
Fallen in love
Fallen down
Achieved greatness
Dreamt higher than stars
Slept like a baby
Learned languages
I’ve created
I’ve found
I’ve tried
I’ve danced
I’ve imagined
Does it all matter?
Is there more?
What is forever?
The key to life?
Have I been living what I’ve wanted to know -
All this time?
Yes &
The important thing is that I am alive
ROUND ONE!
1. David Cook – Hungry like the wolf – Duran Duran
Yay!! Amazing! I love this boy. The performance was good but not amazing - it’ll get him to next week but it was forgettable.
2. Syesha – Proud Mary – Tina turner
I’m a bit hesitant with this … but like dad said a minute ago, she’s come a long way since the beginning.
Hm, pretty good. I wouldn’t say I love it, but it’s good. She had a fun lovable performance.
3. Jason Castro – I shot the sheriff – Bob Marley
Wow did he make this fun. Dad was just singing this and then he comes on the telly saying he’s gonna sing it!! We are sitting here in awe. Nice – this was a new refreshment for him.
4. David A – Stand by me -
Haven’t I already told you that he can sing anything? He kicked frikin butt this first round and wow I can tell you this was my favorite performance this evening.
This first round was pretty pathetic but hopefully it picks up!
Can I just say I hate the audience people? I mean – when someone is being paid to critique on American Idol – let them speak, and don’t boo them. Just because they don’t like it doesn’t mean that their words are God. Let the judges speak and also the whole mosh pit waving arms thing has gotta stop – it gets annoying.
I’m ready for round two!!
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ROUND TWO!
1. David Cook – Baba o’Riley – The Who
Weirdness, but I like it. I love seeing him play the guitar, that’s his element. Much better. This is him for shizzle dawg.
2. Syesha – Change is dead come – Sam Cook
Yes – you are top four – you must be good – but what is good to me?? Ohhhhh nice dress!!! Taylor Hicks sang this baby. Yes Syesha is good … but I wish I had heard some different things from her. Well this wasn’t my favorite of hers, but she was good. So I feel bad for her that she went to tears – I love the lip gloss by the way. Mind sending me an email of what kind and color it was?
3. Jason Castro – Tambourine Man – Bob Dillan
Hm. What’s with the songs? Dad thinks he’s done. Well ok maybe he’s right – but still he’s a good singer. OMG HE FORGOT THE LYRICS. WOW!! That was a big deal just so you know ….. JASON!!! Honey I think you are going home. Sorry bud.
4. David A – Love me tender – Elvis Presly
Hm. WOW. I love the purity in his voice. Honey – I think we need to staple your eyes to your forhead because you need to open your eyes wider. I love this song- I just wish he had big puppy dog eyes to fill out the romantic song. I loved how he sang this. Great performance.
-Looked like he was gonna pass out when Simon told him “You CRUSHED the competition”
Good round 2! I think Jason Castro is going home – because of the bad things that happened – Guess Bob wasn’t ooking out for you! Sorry! Maybe Syesha but …. I don’t think so.
Who should win – David Cook or David Archuleta ;) one of my two future husbands
That which lives in the mind – is amazing, is wonder, is unknown, is complex, and is unseen. Is that good? Is that bad? God sees it – but can you?
There are some days where I feel naked – like I’m wearing my heart on my sleeve, and my thoughts are being displayed on my forehead. Do you know this? Do you see me at my vulnerability? Do you know what I hold deep inside? Those thoughts I hold dear? Do you treat me different when I am like this?
There are days when I feel like no one understands. Like a freak. Like no one has ever been through what I have. I want to hide away, and I don’t want you to see me at all. I want to build up walls and I never want anyone to know what I do – or think of what I do – or hear the things I wonder.
What about you? Do you wonder? Do you care? What do you think? What do you wonder about me? Do you feel like I do? Do you walk on by without a care? Do you wonder what I’m thinking just as I wonder the same about you? Do you wish you knew what I was thinking? Do you want to know?
I wish I knew what you knew. Knew what you know about me. I want to know all there is to know – but is that good? Is that enough? When will it stop? Life is thinking. Life is communication, and it never stops.
I am a brain. I am a heart. I am for I know this. I want more. I wish there was more. Is there more?
…………. Hummmm I wonder
p.s. don’t take any of this personally – and don’t take any comments personally.
sssssssssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Don’t tell anyone but ………………
I have a secret!!!!!!
Guess what it is??
It’s ……………… Today is:
Cinco De Mayo!!! The fifth of May!!!
ok. So I’m an idiot. I have no idea what the fifth of May really is all about – but I’m really proud of myself for realizing it was a holiday-ish. Seriously, I have been like *woosh* like the wind and haven’t realized the holidays. Then the days go by when there’s a holiday and I feel real stupid.
So I’m a surfer. Not a wave surfer but a blog surfer. I pop many many tabs open and look at blogs. I read – I laugh – I cry and I’m addicted. Anyways – I came across this amazing blog full of poems. Then it lead me here to the main blog then I found a certain poem that made my life – go wow. This is my response and my feelings about this poem I found.
I’ve tried to let go
Love is a hard thing to vow and then say never existed
Love is to strong and holds on even when you let go
Love is who we are – it never dies even when a lover takes our heart beat
Love is never forgotten forgiven or gone
Don’t try to not love – it’s impossible
Jeremy camp (again I know) – I will trust in You
I’ve got his worship music playing in my ipod headphones right now. He’s my current playlist!! I also jammed his tunes loud on the stereo this morning during church (where we clean house/sing and play worship music LOUD on Sunday mornings).
I can’t see you
I know your there
I can feel you
I will not fear
I will trust in you and
I will not be afraidWhen the battle is close at hand
Though your with me
You help me stand
I will trust in you
And i will not be afraid
i will not be afraid
i will not be afraid
I will trust in you
I will trust in you
I will trust in you
When the darkness is close at hand
And i’m running against the wind
I will trust in you
And i will not be afraid
When i’m standing upon that shore
Of the battle
Have gone before
I will trust in you
And i will not be afraid
I will not be a fraid
I will not be afraid
I will trust in you
I will trust in you
I will trust in you
Can I just say I love the sun? I mean I hope you understand that from previous posts but now I mean – I LOVE the sun. I just got a tan and I didn’t burn. I know that sounds pathetic that I’m blogging about this but – it’s a big deal for a white girl who usually turns into a crab.
Now I’m about to make a peach cobbler for our friends down the way. They were so sweet – last week they made us dinner, and desert. So we still have their dishes, and now we are going to make them yummy stuff too!!
So anyways – Bless and Be blessed!!
*Amber – aka me
p.s. – why don’t dogs speak spanish? I give them commands in english and they don’t understand then I speak in clear sentences in spanish to the little brats we have and yet still they don’t understand.
I will remember. I will tell myelf. I will aknowledge. I will learn. I will see. I will speak it. I will know it. I will live it. I will smile. I will dance. I will rejoice. I will share. I will understand. I will be.
I am Yours. I am His. I am a child. I am a Princess. I am worth it.
We will inherit more than we know. We will all know. We will be a family. We will see His face.
He is giving. He is forgiving. He is merciful. He will share. He is loving. He is amazing. He is enough. He is my life. He is love. He is laughter. He is music. He is creation. He is peace. He is in our lives. He is the air. He is our Father. He is “I am”. He has been and will always be.
What a wonderful Maker, What a wonderul Savior, How majestic your whispers, How humble Your love, What a wonderful God- Jeremy Camp, Wonderful Maker
Today – I am. Today – He is. Together We will make it. Tomorrow He knows. Tomorrow He will get me to. Tomorrow He will get me through. Yesterday – a path. Yesterday – lovely traces to finding Him.
(Jeremy Camp)
All of you is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in you is more than enough
You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know
And all of you is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in you is more than enough
You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You’re my coming King
You’re my everything
Still more awesome than I know
And all of you is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in you is more than enough
More than all I am
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough
And all of you is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in You is more than enough
This is Me – LIfe – Today – I remind myself – God – You are all I need – You are life – You are my breath – You supply me – Lord – I trust in You -
Bless Us, and America and all those who need you
Why can’t I just be as good as I thought I was? I guess I should just admit to the fact that I can only type 63 words a minute!
Click here to take the Speedtest just like I did. It’s like super fun. You can see how average, good or sucky (LOL) you are at typing.
I thought I could type faster than that. The problem with it is the fact that I actually make more errors than I thought but I go back and correct them so that I don’t have to see them when I am normally typing. This is a lot diferent than I thought it would be. HA. Well if the actual box showed up you would have seen that I can type 63 words and 2 errors, so see it’s not that big.
So I know that sounds stupid but still. That kept me busy for like – the last … oh I think 5 boring minutes just to go blog surfing find someones blog read the recent post find the site (good one by the way about Twilight oh – and she’s funny too!) and take the test.
DO IT. Ok so you don’t have to – but admit it – you want to ;)
I just watched American Idol from last night. WOW.
um. yah. what can I say? It was Brooke’s time to go but she will still do great things 
Poor girl was in soooo much tears and she had to sing! I can’t believe it, but she did it! I’m too lazy to send myself the email of what I thought about the performances. Yah but it doesn’t really matter now since I already know who got voted off.
Oh – for the record Natasha Bedingfield is absolutley beautiful and she is quite the amazing singer.
Ah, a pocketful of sunshine eh? Not ony do I love that song, I love how the sun is shining today. Took my brothers out for a walk, and we played around in the park for awhile. They love the sun too, in fact one of them is sleeping in the sun right now.
So I had a couple friends today go give blood and I wanted to see if I could, (I got really sick a long time ago when I was little) so I read the papers and everything just to find that they say that I actually can give blood!! (When I’m of age of course) so I’m really excited to know that, because I just made the descision that I want to give blood next year!
I do want to blog later, but I’m pretty tired right now. A bit hungry too. Wonder whats for dinner … hummm
Sometimes I don’t understand people
Some days I don’t want to smile
Sometimes I feel like not putting on makeup and not caring what I look like
Sometimes I don’t want to get out of bed
Some days I wonder why people want to talk to me
Some times I wish I could go back and re-write my past
Some days I want to be in space and on the moon
Some days I hate being around people
Some days I wish I could be a dog or an animal
Some times I wish I knew what everyone was thinking
Some days I wish I knew everyone
Some times I can’t quit smiling and I have NO idea why
Some days I want to cry for no reason
Some times I feel alone
Some days I feel invincible
Some times I want to go to vegas and change my name
Some days I don’t want to do anything
Some days I want to jump off my roof and fly off into the sky
Some days I wish I didn’t have to feel so much emotion
Some times I just … AM
yet ….
Everyday I love everyone, and I know I am loved.
Everyday God will love me, and everyday I will breathe and continue to touch people’s lives in different ways
Ze sun!! Ze sun!! Eet eez oot!!
Yes – That is my strange way of telling you the sun has blessed us today. I felt pretty – well – out of my element on Friday and I wasn’t doing so well. I was feeling cooped up, stressed, and well I had a tummy ache. With all that being said – it might sound either strange or logical that the sun was my cure. Indeed, getting out and breathing deep helped. I got out, went to give dad dinner last night (he was at a clients office), went to yardsale, got a walk, sat outside and got some sun (burn actually). I love being outside. Feeling the warmth, smelling the fresh plants, seeing the blue sky, and embracing the openness. It’s like the feeling of knowing how small I am compared to the earth and the heavens, yet knowing I’m a big part of the world and what this life is. I have been too wrapped up the future that I haven’t been able to enjoy the present. It’s sad because when I can’t admit it to myself that I’m missing out on some of the best things in life, I can’t explain myself and I don’t talk about it. I don’t want to be a hypocrite – it’s a sad feeling.
So, in order to clear up this mess in my head I must figure out a solution. What do I want? How am I going to achieve this? I want so bad to be the person I am destined to be, that I’m forgetting who I am! Do you know? It’s nice to know these things.
I have a few things I would like to say. I want to say what’s on my mind without being rude. I’m not mad, and I’m not picking on anybody. I have a lot on my mind.
1. Life is not a movie or a play, so why are people acting? Ever notice how there’s fake people? I don’t just mean the people who are judgmental, inconsiderate or selfish that act differently around you. I speak of those who put on a mask and shield their true emotions, those who aren’t honest with you, those who call you friends; yet talk about you behind your back and lie to you, those who don’t do what they say. I want to learn how to trust people. I want to make friends, have good judgment, and be able to talk to a friend about personal stuff. I can’t, because simply there are too many fake people around me. I pray for you to not be surrounded by them, I pray for them to realize what they do and I pray that I will see past the masks so I can help those who are willing to be themselves.
2. Liars. This goes out to those fakers too. I know we all lie, it’s a sin, yet it’s common and it will always be a problem. I am talking about those who CONSTANTLY lie. I don’t like that. Once again – can I please be given the option to trust? I don’t like it when people over exaggerate things, or cover up their lives with lies. Take it from me – a lie will get you nowhere and only deeper because either you will be exposed or you will live with guilt FOREVER. The truth will set you free. With that I can only say don’t lie to anyone because you might as well be lying to God and that is simply impossible because He won’t believe it.
3. Being Yourself – Being accepted. What else can I say? Why does the world show us people we should be like, and tell us that we must be like them to be loved? Why are we not good enough the way we are? God made us all unique and beautiful – so why ruin it? When we ruin or complain about what He gave us – we are insulting Him. Rude. Doesn’t seem very fair to the Guy who gave us life does it?
4. Complainers whiners and those who simply refuse to see beauty. Why must we take things for granted? Why complain about making coffee when you should be blessed to have coffee because there are people out there who can’t have it, those who don’t have the luxury of even heated water – ok so I’m going deep but get the picture? Stop to smell the flowers growing in the neighbors yard, instead of vaccuuming RIGHT NOW take 10 minutes to play with the puppy whining at your feet, enjoy the bus ride from home to school (&vice versa) tell everyone you love, that you love them. Be content with what you have, because you still have it. I don’t want to hear your pessimism, no one does. We want to all be happy right? Rejoice about the lovely things in life together and smile! Laugh about falling instead of finding an excuse, or a person to blame. Know you are worth life, know that there is always something else waiting for you and that there is a purpose to life. Let others know you notice them, and that they mean something to you. When you learn to show love and kindness to people, the favor usually gets returned. Please anyone who thinks they are worthless, and empty – you aren’t. There is always someone who loves you and needs you. God and I can tell you that – even if you don’t think so. There is always reason to live when you find you are still breathing.
5. Can I just say – I love everyone? I am one of those people who hates to be rude. I beat around the bush, I hate saying bad news, I won’t be the one to say anything mean in a group, I won’t judge you, I won’t yell at you, I might get mad but I will never mean it if I say “I hate you” and I just seem to have compassion and empathy for anyone I meet. Even if I don’t know you but you know me and say things about me that may not be true, I’m still going to love you because you are human and everyone deserves a second chance.
6. Follow God, listen to Him. Live Laugh Love Learn and smile in being INTOLERANT. Learn to love everyone with intolerance of unacceptable behavior. You can do it. Learn to smile at things you normally don’t. Learn to laugh at mistakes and learn to move on. Live to love, laugh, learn and smile. Simple as pie.
SO …. I’m pretty sure there is way more on my mind but so far this is a good vent.
Out to save the world again!! Be back soon ^_-
*Supergirl
This is my fav season so far. I can see so much talent and emotion in all of these contestants.
5701 Syesha: One rock & roll too many
I’m glad she made it this far, I knew she had umph, glad to see it comeout. Cute outfit, cute performance. Pretty good – good enough for me. Did very very good job tonight. My favorite & best performance of hers. This ois definitly her element!!
ALL three judges loved it, perfect, Simon “Very sexy”
5702 Jason Castro: Memory
Wow. I liked it pretty ok. Not his best, but he tries to capture the emotion pretty well, can see the nervousness. Very different but I still liked it. We can see his unique identity.
Randy- not much likin it. Paula- helped him indentify his style, give his influence in the song. Simon- eh. Long two minutes aint it?
5703 Brooke White: You must love me
We had to start it over -elch. Not good. Looks like she’s guna cry. Not bad, but I’ve seen better from her. She grabbed the emotion, and got better with the middle. She looks like an angel up there singing with her blonde hair. She pulled it off with the rest. She’s very genuine.
Randy- A little tough. Paula- never start and stop. Pick up pieces. You sang what you feel, that you can do. Simon- Dramatic, tense, uncomfortable?
5704 David Archuleta(!!!!!!!BEST FOR LAST!!!!!): Think of me (Originally sang by girl) Ah!!! I love this kid! He has such a pure soul, pure sound, honest voice! Amazing performance! Keep your eyes open like Andrew said! WOW Loved this performance!! He’s seventeen and boy should he be my future husband! He can sing anything.
Randy- this boy’s the one to beat. You can sing anything. Paula- you were able to make this work perfect!
5705 Carly Smithson(!!!!!!!BEST FOR LAST!!!!!): Superstar OMG can this girl be any more beautiful?? Ah!! Smiles!! This was a great upbeat fun song, and fit her really well. She’s safe. This girl can jam. She can kick butt. She can sing baby!! She is a rocker baby!!
Randy- Loved it, cute dress Paula- really good Simon- one of his fav performances
5706 David Cook(!!!!!!!BEST FOR LAST!!!!!): The music of the night Wow……. Amazing as usual. I think he can sing anything and OWN it. What soul! What a guy! He should be singing for movies!!!!! UM – I LOVE HIM. He is amazing. I have goosebumps listening to him. OMG Can he sing any better? BASED on pure raw talent, He is the next American Idol. This proved how he can be himself and do whatever he wants. Judges LOVED it.
Who is my next american idol? David Cook -DUH!-
Who should go? Jason or Brooke are my bottom two (sorry)
What performance did I love the best? Syesha and David kicked BUTT tonight – they showed the most umph in what they were doing
Go check out more recaps at BooMama’s Place!
Before I say anything, I want to say HAPPY EARTH DAY!
“….so have some patience…” they say
OH! PATIENCE?? I have it alright – For like a whole 5 minutes – I have patience.
Ok, so remember what I said yesterday about ISATs being frustrating? Well I do like the tests, they are quite fun. The problem is time. We have the math ISATs today, and those are my favorite. This is a geek, this is a nerd, this is the girl who likes school and everything about learning. You give me a text book and leave me alone, I will teach myself a new subject in a week or as fast as I possibly can. I love love school. So I sit there and I get all excited because I get to take a test! (mind you i just had algebra this morning for first hour, and my ISAT is 4th hour) On my way to 3rd hour (before lunch) I’m grabbing my stuff out of my locker, just hear “Teachers – there will be a delay in releasing students for 3rd hour” over the intercom. OK that’s fine, not me- went to class. Before class ended, the lady came on again to say that fourth hour ISATs wouldn’t be happening. WHAT!? That was me!! So I have to wait until the end of the week, when I should be relaxing, to do my ISAT. Nice isn’t it? The good thing is – I didn’t miss biology today so I got to watch “Planet earth”.
I guess in all of this – I am still learning patience. I mean I was upset – I’m not anymore, but I was. We always have to learn patience so it’s not like we can just stop. Then we become angry people – and what’s a world full o impatient rude crabbies?
I am happy. I realized today that I am a fairly optimistic person. I have the tendency to have mood swings, and be different everyday (I’m a GIRL and a TEENager – what do you expect? perfection?) but yet I still manage to be happy.
I ask you – I filled a glass with water, but not all the way and asked you what it looked like – would you say the glass was half full or half empty? I’m used to be ”the glass if full to the middle kind of girl” out of spite, but there comes a time in life where you have to decide what you are. I am striving to be the best optimist I can. Today I sat in debate class, and I have such a cute quirky spontaneous giggly friend who is so funny and entertaining. All day she had something to say, or did something to make you smile, laugh or giggle. I love her attitude because she just wanted an up-beat atmosphere and she successfully made one. People tell me I’m the same. I love being a ray of sunshine, making people smile laugh and feel good. I know its not my job, but it still feels great!
Hm. Anyways I have a baby brother getting antsy and telling me to play with him, and some lousy fun homework notes I want to get done. Remind me where I was later this evening so that I can keep blogging. OH WAIT!! American Idol is on tonight!! So – I will definitly post a bit of that yay-ness
p.s.
Don’t forget to smile
(OH btw Susy Q I did ditch blogger LOL mom helped me switch over so I can have blog stats and that way we can learn wordpress together. You should join!! It’s nice actually, and I’ve noticed alot of people like it better too. Peer pressure now!! JK)
I could be the next American Idol!! It’s true, have you seen the scratch game yet? Well actually no I can’t because I’m still not old enough to play the lottery LOL ^_^
I know it’s a tad late but this where I tell you that I ended up being the one who actually watched American Idol on tuesday last week, by myself. The parentals were out helping dad’s client so I got to babysit. And because I am the awesome sissy, the two baby brothers (two boston terrier puppies for anyone new) climbed up and cuddled with me. That means that it would have been too much work to get up, grab my laptop and get back in the chair. I simply could not do that to them. I mean, who wakes up a sleeping baby?
So, anyways – I had written down some notes. Here’s the thing, I typed it all on my notepad on my blackberry. It was great, so I emailed it to mom so she could have the notes to go off of. She didn’t post til like the other day or something like that so my list just kept sitting there. Well I realized that I should post my thoughts too! I love it, don’t you?
(It was Mariah Carey Night just so you know)
David Archuleta: When You Believe
Good but forgetable … Got better towards the end – HIT the high(good) and low(yelch) notes so he tried … Wasn’t his best performance In my opinion All 3 judges thought it was good ….(what’s w/ his fan club?)
Carly Smithson: Without You
Hmmm a bit pitchy in the beginning & I don’t like the so low range … Doesn’t fit her well Gets better in the middle & towards the end Randy -trust yahself Paula -like the vocal restraint Simon -Not his boat
Syesha Mercado: VanishingPretty good, I can see the emotional connection, good pitch & hitting the high to low notes great, I Liked it All judges liked it as well
* SIMON just said that he thinks David Archuleta has already stolen the show
Brooke White: Hero
Gets better after the first couple seconds Good range! She stayed herself, almost a bit choppy (nerves?) Randy -good Paula- good Simon- didn’t think her voice was strong enough to carry I liked it I love the authentic originality
Kristi Leigh Cook: Forever
Its ok, the low notes are ok with her, she could have done better (Simon didn’t look like he was enjoying himself very much) Got better at the end, had more confidence in herself
Randy- twas good Paula- good choice & loved it Simon- wasn’t good enough for him
(Romielle is sitting in the audience)
David Cook: Always be my baby
OOOHHHHH Yah like my future husband – Wow … All I can say is … WoW I love this version & what he did with the song – OMG Randy- Ready to be a recorded artist, amazing Paula- Amazing Loved it Simon- loved it (original daring risky amazing) David gets sooo happy he ends up in TEARS
Jason Castro: Don’t wanna cry (??)
Hm wow love his voice strange but works for him … What he did with it was good – I liked it just fine … Forgettable though Randy- felt weird Paula- loved it Simon-liked it, thought it fit him very well
Who should go? Kristi or Syesha, but David Archuletta might be in the bottom 3
**Kristi ended up being the one who got voted off anyways
I feel bad right now, because I should have gotten to this sooner. I had a comment not too long ago from an anon. user and the person mentioned some pretty fascinating books. I can’t help but wonder who it was, but mom said it could have been the author. If so, I am very thankful, happy and would like to give you my email to talk more. The book is “Outcasts of Skagaray” http://www.threeswans.com.au and the person gave me this link. I got this before I went to school, and went to the website. I didn’t realize that it was an australian web address but I thought – “Wow, how come I haven’t heard of this?” …. Thats when mom pointed out the “.au” so then I was “Ohhhhh”. Then I read around, and skimmed the exerpts ( I like to save those until I can get the books) and I found them really interesting. I have a certificate that I got from my sweet sixteen and I have decided to go to amazon and buy this book to have and to read!
I actually find that it relatea to the Dragons In Our Midst, and Oracle’s of Fire Series by Bryan Davis. These books are absolutely amazing. They incorporate so much fantasy, from dragons to Merlin, to King Arthur, to the Lady in the Lake, to the after life to angels, to demons, to even using the events Noah and the Flood. Bryan Davis does a wonderful job at meshing in the modern day struggles of a teens fitting in, and get used to strange new things in life, changes and drama in a positive way and also not forgetting God in the big picture. Just as we go about life with God always there, it seems as if with every page you turn you see His prescence in your mind and you can almost seem feel Him sitting there reading with you. The series Dragons in our Midst is the first four he wrote about. The main characters follow out through every story, but with each book comes more main characters, twisted plots, interesting and very similar events as to the ones in the Bible and it is definitly a page turner. Then the Oracles of Fire series (I have only read the first one so far) starts out from the beginning. it shows you how it all started, the beginning and where people came from. It also ties the first four together, and how events in one lead to events in another. He creates a timeline that almost seems real and you get to the point where you believe in it. This page turner is for any age, any one with faith, any one who appreciates fantasy and anyone who needs a fresh story. You can never get sick of this series. I can’t wait to get the next one (directly from Bryan’s website). Mom has been ordering them for me for the past couple years and ALL but one is signed personally by him! They are amazing!
This is one series anyone would love, and would never regret picking up. I hope the “Outcasts” book is the same. I can’t wait to order it!
Anyways I want to get back to the blog I originally wanted to write. If I get my train of thought back – you will see that post tonight!!
You ever have those days where you feel like you’re living the life of someone else? Or maybe, someone’s going to pop out and say “You’ve been punk’d!” that never really happened, or you’re going to open a door and there’s going to be an audience of people watching you? Or life like the Truman Show! Where there are cameras EVERYWHERE and there are people watching your life like a soap opera! Creepy, yet, I have to say imaginative and it would keep someone busy. I don’t know where any of this comes in, except for the fact that I have been feeling like this all day. I wish I knew my future sometimes, or I knew what would happen in a few days so I could be prepared for whatever might happen.
I actually wish I knew the secret to life, so that I could bottle it, and throw it into the ocean so that no one would have it. I think everyone needs to figure out the secret to THEIR life, and show others how to find their own individual secrets. I have learned a new appreciation for the unknown things in life. They give us something to look for, and something to work for. We have to aspire to be the best we can be and know everything because that’s why we are here. To live, laugh, love, LEARN and smile. I actually am going to make a goal – write a blog atleast once a week if not everyday on what my motto means to me, and give each part its own blog. So a blog about “love” “life” “laughter” “learning” and “smiling.”
I had my language ISAT today. Urgh, I love to take those tests because they are on the computers and they are automatic with the scoring but they get so frustrating. I had to sit in a stuffy room with probably more than 25 other kids on stubborn laptops, and look at a small screen without my reading glasses. Brain…. Hurts…. Got….. Headache…. I didn’t get my usual advanced grade, I got a passing grade, but I’m happy with it because this means I don’t have to take the language ISAT next year. For some reason, they have it made for any sophomore that passes their ISATs for the second semester they are no long required to take them after their soph year!! Yay!
Oh- So the sun decided to shine but the wind came out to play. Thanks – I could have enjoyed nice warm weather but instead I had to huddle in my hoodie. The weather guy on the school announcements said that it would be nice day out (I think … I wasn’t paying MUCH attention, but I’m sure he didn’t say anything about people flying away in the wind). But then again its better to trust the highschool weather guy than the real weathercaster because they told us we would have snow this last weekend. Ha, yeah that lasted. We had snow for I think it was 5 whole minutes WHILE it was sunny out. I ran outside, and said “It’s snunning!” – my parents laughed at that, but what else do you call it?
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NOw the funny side of today. I’m a total goober. I follwed Quirky’s (<- cool and fun blog) link to this free personal traits page, and I did it. It’s weird, it’s not like any other things I have taken. It’s a lot cooler. Anyways, it tells me I am an “Advocating (<- click to see the definition) Thinker”. It takes like 5 minutes – and you actually get a more in depth look at yourself. You don’t have to sign in, and you don’t have to give them any personal information. It’s pretty neat go check it out if you want to : My personalDNA Report
How I am in life: You are a Thinker
Your cautiousness, appreciation of functionality, and imagination combine to make you a THINKER. You have a vivid capacity for imagery that allows you to see beyond your present circumstances. You like to be sure of yourself before voicing your opinion. A lot of your time is spent at home, or with the people you care about. Although you may dream often, you’re very aware of how things work, and you value things that work well. You take comfort in the familiar, and value predictability—and others value those things in you. Accordingly, you prefer a set routine, and although you often imagine how things can be different, you’re hesitant to take risks to change things. Sometimes you doubt whether you have the ability to face certain challenges, but your practical focus helps you solve most problems. Because of this, you tend to be more reactive than proactive, thinking thoroughly about the challenges that you face. You have a broad-based, theoretical understanding of the world that allows you to understand its workings. You’re not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you’re generally considerate of others’ feelings as well. You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute. You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation – friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.
How I react with others: You are Advocating (supportive, or a believer)
Being social, empathic, and understanding makes you ADVOCATING. Some people find being around others exhausting—but not you! You are energized by spending time with friends, and you are good at meeting new people. One of the reasons you enjoy conversation as much as you do is that you often learn about yourself while talking things out with a friend; you realize things about your own beliefs while discussing them with others. You have insight into what others are thinking and feeling. This ability allows you to be happy for others, and to commiserate when something has gone wrong for them. You are highly compassionate, and being conscious of how things affect those close to you leaves you cautious about trusting others too hastily. Despite these reservations, you are open-minded when it comes to your worldview; you don’t look to impose your ways on others. Your sensitivity towards others’ plights contributes to an understanding—both intellectual and emotional—of many different perspectives. As someone who understands the complexities of the world around you, you are reluctant to pass judgments.
I don’t think anyone really understands being free. I mean we all know that we are free in this country right? We have the right to free speech, and we can protest, we have a part in the government, we can be whatever religion we want, we have the right to choose what sexual orientation we want, we can be anyone we want, we are given more opportunities than a lot of other countries do, and we have freedoms such as safety, privacy and education. Where is God in all this? God is the founder of ALL of our freedoms. He gave us life, which gave us everything he had to offer. There are limits to this freedom, like not being Him, not knowing our full potential, and not seeing what plans he has for us. It shouldn’t matter though. This life is about being free that we can only wholly achieve through Him. Being free from worry, free from envy, free from denial, free to give, free to love, free to laugh and free to smile. We have so much to be thankful for, and yet we in turn sin against the loving father who cherishes us more than anything. Every day He is standing over us, watching us, listening to us, loving us, and praying for us. He knows our future, and he knows who we are inside out and yet he loves us. He loves the axe murderer who only wants to end people’s lives, He loves the wiccans because they are still his children, and they fall to sin under Satan’s rule, He loves the druggies down the street, He loves the hypocritical pastor, He loves the single mother, and he loves you. No one is exempt from his love. We weren’t granted the ability to live, without the ability to be free. He does not chain us up, and he doesn’t keep things from us. We can see and be anything we want, as long as we have Him on our side. That’s all He wants, is for us to accept Him and love Him.
I live my life off of getting what I want. I know the feeling, I’m an only child, and I can say because of God I am a beautiful and smart girl. With all that in perspective, my chances of being told “no”, are pretty slim. Now I also am manipulative and persuasive when I get told “no”. This is how a lot of us live. Want to know something weird? Today was so weird …. Things weren’t going my way and I threw a mini-fit. Pathetic, I know. So then I thought … “Wait – were the chances of that being beneficial and good to my life?” and I answered my own question as to why I didn’t need it. It was eye opening because I know that God was in my head when I made some choices today, and I’m glad He was because I needed Him and He knew that. He knew when to step in. I feel great. It’s amazing the feeling you get when you know that God has been by your side all day, inadvertently making your decisions for you. I didn’t think I could give my life up that easily, but I found out that if you want the best for yourself you have to stop listening to yourself. That is the time to start talking to God. Only He knows what’s best for you, and He can make it happen. In all things God works for the good of those who love him. (Romans 8:28).
God is doing that to you to you know. He wants you; His CHILD, his baby, his precious gem to be free. He wants to take care of you, hold you, be there for you and show you the light. He wants you to inherit His kingdom- You are all princes and princesses of His. He wants you to be happy and experience all the things He has laid out for you. He wants you to be free, and He wants you to know His love. I certainly want it. I know I can have it, and I know everyone else can have it. If he has already given us His love, He will give us more. We just have to stop living for ourselves- can’t you see that’s what is giving us all these problems? Living for ourselves, is making our lust, our desires and sinful nature cause problems that won’t go away. That isn’t living a Godly life, and I’m not saying you have to give up everything you know. If it works for who you may be, then perhaps it is the way to go. I am simply saying that before we act, think, judge, and behave, we need to ask “Is this what You want FOR ME God? Is this what I need?” and trust Him with our lives. He knows it all, He knows what’s best. Trust Him.
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