Katharine Mcphee

Katharine McPhee Over It Lyrics


I’m over your lies
And I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me
When you know
I’m not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin’ me
I know you’re not alone
Oh and that’s why your eyes
I’m over it
Your smile
I’m over it
Realized
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over
(Chorus)
Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over
( I’m so)Movin’ on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
I’m so over it
I’m over your hands
And I’m over your mouth
Trying to drag me down
and fill me with self doubt
Oh and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure
I’m over it
I’m not your girlI’m over it,
I’m over it I’m over
(Chorus)
(Bridge)(Oh)
Don’t call,
Don’t come by
Ain’t no use don’t ask me why
You’ll never change
There’ll be no more crying in the rain
No, oh oh
I’m over it
(Chorus)

Reconnaissant (*french)

Right about now I am thanking GOD for everything…..
Laptops, friendships, family, food, life, the ability to think, speak, hear and laugh, do you want to know why?

Because I have had a long day…. We all have. Poor graham has had to deal with more dumb and rude people than he has to in general, some dummy didn’t properly load and secure his wood and we ran over a piece, I am having some friendship …. Eh problems, but they aren’t big and someone who isn’t involved wants to be, and OUR POWER JUST WENT OUT at 952!

I am ok. I have actually been listening to my worship music since around 730 pm today and it is now almost 10:00 at night. Its pretty nice to be listening to something that calms you down. Someone told me once that everytime you get mad, need break, or just can’t take it, you should pray. Thank God for something. Anything. Listen to some good worship music. Remind yourself, that God does care. He only puts us in trials to test us to see how we handle things.

*takes a DEEP breath*

Well it just came back on and it is now 956

Oh dear lordy it just went out again at 10 25 and just kicked back on at 10 28. Dear me. I am not happy with this right now.

If we go off one more time…. Well I might have to just shoot something. Just kidding!

I would never do that. Or would I?? Hmmmmm, where is that b-b gun? Hahahah. I am just kidding.

Prayer

Dear Lord,
You know me, so I am not worried. Too much atleast. You will watch over me, make sure I am safe. I hope you do.
Wait, I know you do. Because I am alive, and well, changing. I am your proof.
You know me ever so we, I am not jealous, I am thankful. Thankful that someone knows me, my weknesses, my strengths, and who I can be.
I am thankful for love, life, light, happiness, dreams, and passion.

I believe ….

I believe- that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe- that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe- that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I believe- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe- that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe- that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe- that you can keep going long after you can’t.

I believe- that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe- that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe- that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe- that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe- that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe- that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I believe- that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe- that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I believe- that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I believe- that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I believe- that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe- that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I believe- that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe- that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other and just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I believe- that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe- that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe- that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I believe- that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I believe- that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe- that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

- I believe that faith is the key to every success.

- I believe that love is the cure for all pain.

- I believe that hope is the reason to continue.

- I believe that happiness starts from ones self.

- I believe that everything happens for a reason.

- I believe that a smile is contagious.

- I believe that friendship has no boundaries.

- I believe that every person is perfect but in different proportions.

- I believe that there is light in the end of the tunnel.

- I believe that simplicity is a way of life.

- I believe that life doesn’t come and go we do.

- I believe that people who look down at others, will eventually fall down.

- I believe that God never forgets anyone from his graces.

Some of Them Want to Use You

This has been since about last monday or tuesday just so we all know and YES i still feel this way. If you know who this is, please keep it to yourself. This is just to express how I feel.

Current Mood: ANGRY and sick to my stomach
Current Song (in my head/general): Sweet Dreams by Eurhythmics

No one should ever have to feel used. It’s a crappy feeling.I am serious here though. The worst part of all this is I got to experience the real feeling of being USED AND LIED to today and how a real friend helps you through a hard time. It may not have been entirely intentional, all I know is it was full blast today. It felt terrible, especially when you think you and the person were friends. Close friends.

Personally I think that part of this person might know what they are doing to me and they just don’t want to bring it up.

When someone doesn’t talk to you at all, then calls you but doesn’t want to talk to you, just wants to ask something stupid, seems to have problems but doesn’t come to you even if you have said you are always there (all I want to do is be their friend), it’s hard. Especially when you are with that person and all they want from you is to cover them, or give them something and they know that you will give it up. A real friend doesnt do that, and I should have noticed that. That means that they want something from you. And if that person isn’t a real friend they will probably freak out if you say no. That’s how it was today for me. I didn’t give up something that was use to being done, and well someone had a hissy fit. So of course I felt used. And well my world has revolved around this person for quite some time, and well my earth just stopped anyways.

I AM SORRY IF YOU HAVE EVER FELT LIKE THIS. Sucks doesn’t it? Yah I can tell you that I actually know what you feel.

This person has no CLUE. I just wanna run my head into the wall I tell you. I hate this. Now I just feel used and ANGRY. I mean really mad.

All this person wants to do is talk about people and it’s really stupid. I mean first it’s some girl they DO NOT know then its one of their exes and how that person has a new bf. What does that tell you? That they would rather talk about someone else than have a nice conversation about school or us or anything else for that matter. It is all ABOUT THEM and other people.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

What do you do?

So I don’t know if you know this, but we all have this innate thing that we are ALL born with. We all want to be accepted. Yes. Some have a special thing about them where they can be independent and not care what people think about them. I have met a few. But I also know that when someone does like them, they like that feeling. We all do. So naturally I want to be accepted. I am a follower. I don’t do anything dumb on purpose to be liked but it might happen once or twice if I am not careful. I recently have. I have let my opinions on a lot of things get changed and influenced by someone that I wanted to like me. I should not have let that happen.

When I had the maturity to understand it, I had an opinion. Gay marriage, being gay and everything in between. I began to meet new people, make new friends, and of course, everyone meets one, and well one of my friends just happens to be gay. I love this person to death. And because I wanted them to like me I did not tell them my true opinion on this topic. I believe that being gay is wrong and sinful, and it is not acceptable in my eyes or the Lord’s. It never really came up whether I thought it was right or wrong. I mean isn’t this a world of moral relativism people? Ha. (I would reccomend reading Be Intolerant by Ryan Dobson to understand this topic) No. So being as I was hanging out with this person, I became more increasingly tolerant. CRAP. That wasn’t meant to happen. So I never said anything. Never really told people how I felt until I really got to know this person, I thought. A lot of things happened with this person and events happened with me that this person knew. I guess you could say they were there for me. They were there to share concern and look like they cared, but….. they weren’t there for the long haul. I tried I really did. I wanted to make our friendship last. I told this person that I might screw up, and that I might push them away. They said that they would stay, no matter how far I shoved them away. But this didn’t happen, I have been lied to.

In the midst of trying, I became more aware of who I was and how I had changed. How I had changed for this one person. My whole life revolved around this person. Not me. I thought I was supposed to come first in my life? I should…. Right? Even this person said these words to me. Why hadn’t I realized that I had changed my entire life for this person? Was it because I thought I could change them? Because they had confided in me with some information and I thought I could confide in them…. forever? Forever isn’t very long then. Stuff happened and well we just haven’t actually talked. We have done the whole not face-to-face thing, ie; I-M, TEXT… it just isn’t the same anymore.

I still do not know how I am going to handle this whole situation since there are a lot of feelings still remaining between the two of us. Not that this persons feelings seem real right now. I mean this whole relationship feels fake. Harsh? No, not to me. The cheesy smile I used to get, is now for everyone, so did it ever mean anything? Did the hug ever feel like a bond for this person as much as it did for me? What’s real anymore? I know that I can change my opinions and now it seems like this person really wants me to have an opinion that they don’t care and that we aren’t as close as I thought. Hummm…well then. I can deal. I have been trying to let it go, let them go. It’s hard to let someone go that you truly care about, but if that’s what I have to do to get them too see then ok. Even if they never see, I will get myself out of a pointless relationship that will just hurt me more.

I mean I love them for who they are, not WHAT they are. I am not speaking another language ok? They need to talk to me, come to me. I told them to. No matter. I told them I will always love them and I will never abandon them for anything in life. They simply matter too much to me. I treasure friendship, and love and trust so much that if they are this important I can let them go. I want this person to be happy.

It is that simple, all I need is something. They know I am waiting for people to come to me. I want people to trust me and know that I am here. I don’t want them to think I am prying and need to know every inch of their lives because I don’t. I want to feel needed and accepted but I also don’t want to hurt myself just for one person.

~* Your My Only Hope

So I have come up with something. I never thought about it. It will be alot nicer because it is being written to someone who does not tolerate attitude and it is makes alot of sense to me.

Prayer. I know that it is a random way of telling people what I am thinking, but atleast God knows. So I stayed up till midnight last night writing, like ususal. But it was not just writing, I was writing a prayer. As I slept last night (wow I got sleep) I thought about what I could do with it. I thought I could show someone. But thats about finding the right person.

You know your friends care, but they might not want to read 3 pages about something that isn’t theirs. Well at least I know mine might or someone else’s do. Since I am doing some serious soul searching and really defining friendship so I am learning who I can go to and who will care about what I have to say.

I will put up my prayer later though when it is done. ^^

special much?

So once again I didn’t make the drivers ed cut. *sigh*
This means I will not be learning how to drive …. or will I???

MUHAHAHA

MY talent

I went to the talent show. I think there was only one person I didn’t like. pretty much everyone was awesome. very impressive. there were singers, dancers, instrumentalists, and then this weird chant by ALOT of guys. Cade was in it. Yup bald man’s client’s son. It was a blast.

So i get this really awesome spot with a good veiw, I mean I only have to move around the heads, but for the most part, that was it. and about half way through the show, these two girls sit RIGHT in front of me! RUINING my view! how rude! and so…. out of PURE SPITE when the person was done with their talent, what did I do? Did I tap the girl and politely ask her to move? no. Did I move? no. Did I do anything rude to them? no.
However, what I did do was my particular talent.
At the TOP OF MY LUNGS with all my energy, I screamed.

^_^
LOUD.
One girl turned around to see who it was. It was me. Yah. I know it wasn’t very nice, I might have killed someone’s eardrum.
They deserved it though. They ruined my view.

Talent show, eh?

So I am going to do my homework which is english. it is writing about romeo and juliet and healthy relationships. it is fun, I will have to post it. I LOVE Romeo and Juliet. it is my favorite ironic funny love tradegy.
Then after I finish mi tarea I will be headed to the talent show!! yay!! my friend david was suposed to be in it, then he said he didnt want to be, then he said he would atleast go, but he isnt. sad huh?

well i bid you all adeiu ~

CAUTION: hysterical laughing may occur!

So after changing so many things i finally come up with a good title and an adult way of basically saying you will laugh so hard and so loud you will or may wake up China. Depending how late you are up or whatever time it is while you are currently watching these since I dont know how far ahead of time China is. I will have the dogs email me when they get there through their holes to inform me of the time difference. GRRR those dumb holes to CHINA, dangit!!

Well here you go: http://baratsandbereta.com/videos.html
funny funny ^_^

MY MAMA!!

YAY!! Guess who’s back?!?! You will never guess!! well, maybe. LOL. I am happy, so are my brothers. They missed their mama, just as much as I did. WAIT I missed her more. Ha ha. Oh so she got to go to San Jose and play on the beach, feel the ocean and enjoy the really nice and warm weather and WHAT?! do i get?

A ROCK!! Omg, is she crazy? It’s pretty cute really. It’s got holes. *shudders* (holes, don’t remind me of the little bratty babies diggin holes) Here lemme just show you how cute it is. The boys went nutz. It was funny. Humphrey Bogart just had to sniff, which is fine, then he licked it, *mmmm yummy, salt* and then he what?! he walks of with MY rock!!! rude much? ha ha. Isnt it cute? I haven’t figured out what I want to name it. Yes, if you are wondering, I name everything. Therefore why not name my rock??

SO there are holes. HOLES. Ha ha I just love and hate that word. I dont know why. Anyways. There is a hole on the side, we think it is a home. Mama says she thinks someone used to live there. I think someTHING used to live there. Like a crab or someTHING.

PLEASE subit a comment on a name if you think of a really great name for such an obedient pet! THANK YOU! ^_^

Oh I got a heffalump. What is a heffalump you ask? If you have seen Winnie the Pooh you will know, if you can remember, I had to think of the word. A heffalump is a elephant. He is precious. I named him ALF. Yah. It’s cuz of his tail. I remember this weird commercial with Terry Bradshaw and this muppet looking guy and he had this tuff of hair on his head, do you know what I am talking about? Yah that’s what he reminds me of, and the first name I could come up with was ALF. Ha ha you will get it when you see him.

Isn’t he just precious? He is super soft. I love him. I am holding him. I do not want put him down. Alf is is San Jose. He is my souvaneir. (

Thank you mama for bringing me Alf and …….. rock.

I LOVE YOU!!

Pointless! …. but helpful too…

so im taking this internet apps class, and by jee wizz, I dont think I need it
AT ALL…. I sit and do all this stuff out of a book and its really dumb especially when it might never come in handy in the future and I might forget it all… maybe. So we were dealing with how to seperate a web page into frames and it was making me very mad today. All I had to do was learn how to seperate the page into 4 frames (it basically had to look like 4 boxes.) but I couldnt find the page that told you how to do it. When I got to that page I learned what you have to type in and blah blah frameset and blah blah blah. WELL i typed it all in, and I went over it and over it and over it. Why didn’t it look the way I wanted it to? Why when I had gone over it a MILLION times was it not what it should have been?? Well, being as stubborn as I am did I ask for help? need i answer this? NO and NO.
so i just kept getting even more angry and when I figured it out guess what?!?! the class – was over. yah. that’s my luck for ya.
OH the problem? What did I finally figure out?

I was missing a quotation mark.

Boy do I feel like an ID10T.
YAH. thought I would share that with you.

Procrastination………thats a FUNNY word

I want MORE comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. I need to do my homework….. ^_^

AACCKK!!!!!!!! HOMEWORK!!!!! clean, make dinner, homework, clean, the list goes on and on and on………….. I could tell you but you would be here for days.

omg and everone is still sick at school so just as I am coming down from being sick (which you can tell I still am but its just the being HOT and you wanna strip [haha], the nasty COFFING, and the constant HEADACHE, oh and the everyonce in a while feel like you are gonna puke.) I might get sick again…. gawl I hope not. THAT would suck.

Did I mention tengo mucho la tarea?

Sorry, that was spanish. Haha. Well I think I will get started on my english, then my geometry and then I will make dinner. *sigh* Why does my mama have to be gone? Haha.I miss her. HOW in the world am I ever going to survive as a mom? WOW, well I guess if you think about it, I will have a husband and …. well I guess it will be ok. Haha.

I wish there was more time in the world for school and life and homework and stuff. like blogging. haha. I want to build a time machine and go back and not necisarily fix things, but change a couple things …… ^_^

omg I just found out one of my friends is at home puking sick and I feel terrible for him!! I will pray for you Joe!! poor guy

you know I really am procrastinating my homework and cleaning and stuff arent I? just by blogging more. but I cant stop. its so much fun.

well hopefully if my homework doesnt kill me I will be on later and share my thoughts

xoxox ~rootbeer

School… not cool…

*sigh* time for school, I dont want to go, but I guess I will. EWW the bus. Yay friends. well I hope I have a good day. I have to do my geometry and english tonight and … I have horticulture today; yay!! I love that class. It is sooo much fun.

Guess what I am taking for lunch? I am taking PIZZA! haha, yah it will be very yummy, and I have grapes for a snack. Well I should probably go, I dont know why though.

HEY! Why the heck am I up when it’s still dark? Thats not cool, this whole clock and sun thing, HAS GOT TO GO. I have a hard time with mornings, as it is and I have to wake up to the dark? I mean heck the sun isnt up, why do I have to be?!?!

Anyways, I guess I will stop complaining. Talk to you my precious blog and any fascinated reader, after, um 3:00 pm or maybe later. Since I have homework and cleaning left to do. ^_^

Alive?

Mama has been gone for an entire day and we are all alive and safe. So little tommy lee figured out how to jump on the ottoman and he wont do it unless you tell him to or get him all hyper. So its pretty cute, and he is really funny when he does it.
Well we had pizza for dinner and it was pretty good. Yummy Yum yum . And I just ate another piece.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm
I think I should go to bed now. Haha. But I’m not tired. *sigh* anyways. I am watching a show. Its the one where they deal with the N word alot, I know thats a big deal but it makes a really big point. It just points out that the word is a big deal and its not meant to be said at all.

I want another piece of pizza. I know that was random.

I LOVE YOU MAMA AUNT CARRIE AND RACHEL!!! XOXO SEE YOU ON TUESDAY!!

"SORRY…"

so I’ve got the littlest baby on my lap, well did since he just ran off. yah how rude. I know. I can’t think of anything else to type. let see what this little girl has been procrastinating and what she needs to do:

1. write essay prompt thing for enlish
2. geometry test and worksheets
3. clean sum’ore
4. finish watching I Robot
5. Dinner

~holy cow! I need to make dinner! yay! I think I am going to make breakfast. maybe we just dont need to eat dinner. dont worry mama. I will feed us, and the fish.

6. Call my mama goodnight

**my thoughts on dinner**
frensh toast? scrambled eggs? toast? oj? pancakes? waffles? — hey!! I can just have dad order pizza!! ^_^ haha

Inside of the Bug

Remember the little bug down below?

Roadster Show
Originally uploaded by Boise IT.

WOW, this is the inside of the bug, there was more to the inside but this was the best picture we could get. Boy there were some really awesome cars there.

This Yellow 1937 Chevy Coupe, was signed by Chubby Checker!! How cool is that? Oh it is beautiful, the inside, was just amazing. I wll describe it when I can remember more. ^^

Flame Game

Roadster Show
Originally uploaded by Boise IT.

So today we went to taco bell and ordered 3 orders of steak and cheese taquitos. Well the jerk only gave us 2.
RUDE much?
Then we went to the Roadster show and WOW, are those cars beautiful. It is PURE art, you can really see how much love and efort and life these guys put into these cars. It is amazing, this is not only one of my favorites, it has fire. Fire pretty. HAHA. ANY-who…. Oh yah, back to the cars. I told Graham, I’m like, “I wana pic of this one too” and I just kept saying it. So being as his phone is pimpin and really awesome he totally took pictures and sent them to flickr. Yah how cool is that? I think its sweet, and haha, you’ll love this. So we found this cute bug, (down below) and this lady was standing behind us on her phone. Well shes like “blah blah you would love this bug blah blah I will take a pic and send it to you blah blah” talking to her friend. Well bald man over here says, “Oh I can send it to you if you have an email!” so what does she say 5 minutes later? She comes up and is like “Are you serious? Can you send it to my email?” sooooo being the nice guy he is actually takes a another picture and gets her email and sends it to her. HOW SWEET!
Anyways, he got to do somethin nice for someone.

Well we have talked to Mama a couple times today, they made it there to San Jose safely and they are actually at a doctors app. right now for rachel. OH and get this, not only is she in NICE weather, she calmly says “Oh yeah and we are going to the beach later.” WITHOUT ME!! haha not cool mama not cool. But I will be fine. I promise. *sigh* I hope they have mucho fun and take ALOT of pix.

Um well not much going on, Bald man and I are going to watch a movie or two, and I am going to clean a bit more and do my homework and we are not going to kill eachother. HAHA. dont worry mama.

LOVE and MISS my mama!! LOVE you aunt carrie and Rachel!! XOX

0.0 NiGhT oWlS

why are we still up? mama is leaving tomorrow, which I am sad about by the way and its like 1:30 in the morning. I know we are all tired, but being night owls, we just cant go to bed. I know I have a nice warm comfy bed upstairs waiting for me but for some reason this couch is better. *sigh* I think tomorrow which is today I will change my template from script to something else. I dont know. I like this but its not much ME-ed ….. hmmmm
will have to think bout that.
adeiu adeiu

“.. but soft! what light through yonder window breaks? it is the east, and Juliet is the sun!”
~Romeo

* dear God,
please bless mama aunt carrie and rachel tomorrow on their flight and their journey. please give them a fun and pleasant experience and get them home safely. *AMEN

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my mama is leaving bald man and i tomorrow. ALONE. WITHOUT ME. She isn’t coming home till tuesday. So dad and I have to deal with each other and try not to kill eachother. HAHA
seriously, ummmmm
I just went surfin blogs and I came across this really weird one
http://luxuri3nth-3r.blogspot.com/
and well I just became a hacker and I found a way to beat their system, it was fun. I actually learned something in my pointless Internet Applications class.
I wish I was a dog. Cute, fuzzy, cuddly, and even if you think as a dog at least (i think) it’s not the same as thinkin right now as I am. And I’m sure you don’t have to worry bout anything.